Rejected

Well that was somehow expected.

But it hurt in a weird kind of way. No they didn't let me down, its like I let me down. How can someone tell me  I am not good enough, even if I didn't want to be there anyway. The only thing that was the charm if you could call it that was the hiking and the beer.

I wish I could reject them on my own terms, since I find it appalling how these organizations stufff their ideologies and worst practices down your throat. Why don't I get to stuff my choices down theirs?

Anyway, have to move on to better things. Enough of waiting for things I didn't want from the heart.